159.  Tuesday afternoon.  Back at Victoria.  Seeking inspiration, not finding it.

The sun is bright, my eyes are hurting.  I had the oddest of dreams.  I woke at 4.30am this morning, with visions of deformed mice, a washing machine draining water onto a field, some young men stepping awkwardly.  I thought about getting up and going to the river, but I didn’t.  The fact is I … Continue reading 159.  Tuesday afternoon.  Back at Victoria.  Seeking inspiration, not finding it.

70.  Tuesday afternoon.  Mid-luncheon at St Pancras.

A young man is sitting at the next table, boyish looks, slack grey sweater, smooth neck, we are close, physically, separated by a Perspex screen.  The juxtaposition feels voyeuristic. There’s a voicemail message on my ‘phone, but I can’t access it because of PIN number uncertainty.  I wonder who it was.  Normally I don’t worry … Continue reading 70.  Tuesday afternoon.  Mid-luncheon at St Pancras.